You’re the big sister now and you proudly own it. You love to help mommy with the boys. You are changing daily. Growing physically and emotionally. You throw less fits (thank you, Jesus) and you listen to mommy when she talks to you like a big girl.
Seeing you next to the boys makes me realize how big you actually are. How the time passes by so quickly. You were my first baby. My first love that knew no bounds. I remember rocking you when you were a few weeks old at night. Nursing you and and feeling so overwhelmed with the amount of joy and raw love that I had for you. You would grasp my finger with your whole hand. No one told me about this. No one prepared me for these feelings I would have for you. I remember crying while holding you out of sheer happiness that you were mine. And I felt so undeserving and under qualified to be your mommy. To feel this much love.
And now you are four- you make sure everyone knows you are “four and almost five”. You amaze me. The big girl you have become. I am so proud of the heart that you have for serving others. How much love you have to give. I learn so much from you, dear.
I want you to stay little forever. Stay my little girl. My baby. I am taking extra time to cuddle and kiss you. To listen to your stories and jokes that don’t always make much sense but always bring a smile when you tell them. To always watch you twirl and do your made-up dance routines.
Thank you for letting me be your mommy and showing me what grace looks like.